:-(

My best friend committed suicide on Friday. So.......:-(

I was such a bad friend, I didn't talk to her on the weekend cause I was a little mad she didn't come to my birthday lunch. And I hadn't visited her in a couple of weeks (she couldn't drive and she lived in the other side of town so I always visited her instead of her coming to see me as it takes like 2 hours on the bus). I don't know if it would have made any difference if I had visited her more recently - I mean she didn't try to call me or anything. But I can't help but wish I had called her on the weekend :-(
I really didn't think she was in any danger - she had been doing really well lately, got a high distinction in the one uni subject she did last semester and doing fine this semester. She moved out of the group home because she didn't need the support as much (she had severe depression and bipolar). She got a distinction in her grade 6 piano exam. And the few other times she felt like she might do something silly, she got herself checked into hospital. So I don't really know what happened this time. I hope to find out more at the funeral on Monday.

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Byokugen
Oh... I'm really sorry... but why end her life? That is not a solution, only brings more pain to those that are close... :'(
 
Sonic Angel Knight
Usually people who commit suicide do not think about the other people, but escaping the harsh problems of realism. Is a simple method but is very daunting to anyone. I'm sorry to hear your friend has taken their own life, and anyone could have done the same. Do not blame yourself for it, there must been other severe reasons for it. (Not sure if it exist where you are but here we have 911 and also a suicide hotline I think) So if something like that exist, make sure people know so they can use it if so need. :unsure:
 
FAST6191
"but escaping the harsh problems of realism" "there must been other severe reasons for it"
I would usually go with it is a rather permanent solution to a temporary problem, though in this case it sounds like she had a few more aggravating factors.

Anyway by means feel bad that your friend died, however I rarely find it productive to do the "if if if" scenarios unless one of those ifs is you not suggesting it as a solution (which I doubt you did). It is a complicated psychology, on top of what sounds like an already complicated psychology.

Hang in there.
 
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Lightyose
I gladly didn't pass through this. But I really feel bad for you and her. I haven't gotten that extreme in suicidal thoughts...
 
G
My, that's unfortunate but ultimately you can't blame yourself for not helping her. You've got to remember she didn't call for help (according to your post) so she allowed this self-hate grow inside until it finally burst.

But then again, considering she was an extreme case of bipolar she should have been under watch because this sort of thing tends to happen.

RIP.
 
DinohScene
I'm sorry for your loss.

If I'm agitated by friends, I just stay irritated for 5-10 minutes and then completely forget about it.
Best way to make up is to just completely drop the subject and never talk about it again.

I wish you good luck at the funeral.
I remember the funeral of me bestie who died in '08.
Never been the same after it ;/
 
Olmectron
I'm sorry for your loss.

No words can express what I want to say. But, in short, don't feel it's your fault in any way.

Because it is not.

My condolences to you and her family.
 
The Catboy
Please do not let your mind wonder the paths of "what if" and blame yourself for this. Once you wonder that path, it's hard path to get off and it will break you down. You didn't cause this to happen and there's only so much you can do to help people in these kinds of situations. Trust me, she most likely cherished every minute you spent with her because you were there when she needed a friend.
You are good person and knowing you here on the Temp, I believe you were a good friend as well. Stay strong, my friend.
 
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vinstage
@leon315 Are you seriously being so inconsiderate?

My condolences to you and those related to her. It's hard to accept at first, it's saddening.
 

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