I screwed up again.

I knew it was bothering you... I knew I was doing something wrong... That's why I told you I wanted to something for you! I know that me saying sorry probably means nothing you anymore. I want to know more about you, I want to get to know your family, and I want you to have fun. I was thinking about this earlier, and I realized that I was probably hurting you. My mom even noticed it, and confronted me about it. I want you to have fun, I want you to be happy. I'll be honest, I talk much more over a keyboard, I've always been like that. I'm not good at putting words together and speaking. I screw up my words and sentences. I always have had a cold heart, and I used to try and not talk. I'm not good at it. People bother me, I hate most people. I seem happy and bubbly, but it's because I don't want you to be like me, I want you to be happy. I want to be the one to make you happy, and it seems like I'm doing a horrible job at it. I want to know more about you, I want to know everything! I want you and I to know everything about each other! There are many things that I've hidden away in my heart for years, and I'd tell you my whole life's story! There's not much to it, but there are some things that not even my parents know that I'd tell you. I love you Sheyenne, and I know that I'm like a heartless robot, but I don't mean to be one... I don't know what else to say... other than that I'm sorry for treating you like crap, and I want to change for you.

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Skelletonike
Hum... So much hate... Maybe you're a tad too emo and depressed... Saying stuff like hiding your heart, being cold hearted, not wanting the girl to suffer, and the so very cliche "I want to change for you"... You def need to change the way you live your life, not because of some girl, but because of your future.
Oh, and girls love to hear stuff face to face, trust me, much better than over a keyboard since it has more feeling... If you're not good at talking to a girl you like, what the hell do you plan on doing to begin with? <.<
 
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tl;dr
Ok, seriously.. Who are you? Who did you hurt? And who is Sheyenne?
 

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