Those of you who have been on this site as part of the community for a few years or more have probably seen me around the forum. Regardless of what you think about me, or what you think you know about me, let me lay all of that out now. You see, behind this internet persona you'll find an honest albeit unstable person. I persevere in life with a mental disorder known as Bipolar disorder. According to some doctors I am also autistic. For most of my life I have had severe mood swings. I would get angry for very little reason, or sad at the slightest discouraging words. I would fall into slumps where I had no motivation to do anything. Only recently have I learned that these slumps are depression. A few of you have seen me at my worst here, and for that I apologize. Enough about this though. I've been able to combat this through the use of anti-psychotics and other drugs, but at the moment I do my best to find my own ways to combat my problems... With or without medication. At the moment I'm stable and I feel like I've been opening my eyes to a new world that I didn't see before.
If you get to know me, you'll find that I'm very chivalrous. Meaning that as a man, I won't hit a woman unless it's self defense, and I treat a woman with respect and dignity. It's part of my code of honor and it's something I rarely see these days. In my code of honor, I've made several pledges. Each one of them is an integral part of how I live and to break even one of them is a severe blow to my honor which is also my life. I suppose I have anime to thank for this ridiculous way of thinking. Looking back now, I don't think I could have lived the way I did before. I feel like I've gained a piece of myself that was not there from birth. Almost as if I've been incomplete from the start.
Lately I've been contemplating what it means to die. Whether or not it's something to fear. I still haven't arrived at a conclusion, but I feel like if I were to die tomorrow I would be fine with it. I have no regrets up to this point, but I'd like to continue to find myself and fit the pieces together. There's so much I have yet to do, like finding true love, giving back to humanity, and a number of other things, but even if I die incomplete, I think I could be okay with that. It seems like I'm at peace with myself.
I also have GBAtemp to thank for a number of things: enlightenment, entertainment, friendly and serious advice, and friends. GBAtemp has given me all of these things, and some of them I could not have found by myself. So in short, thank you GBAtemp. You've changed my life in more ways than one. You've kept me going when times were tough and also you've let me help other the same way.
If you get to know me, you'll find that I'm very chivalrous. Meaning that as a man, I won't hit a woman unless it's self defense, and I treat a woman with respect and dignity. It's part of my code of honor and it's something I rarely see these days. In my code of honor, I've made several pledges. Each one of them is an integral part of how I live and to break even one of them is a severe blow to my honor which is also my life. I suppose I have anime to thank for this ridiculous way of thinking. Looking back now, I don't think I could have lived the way I did before. I feel like I've gained a piece of myself that was not there from birth. Almost as if I've been incomplete from the start.
Lately I've been contemplating what it means to die. Whether or not it's something to fear. I still haven't arrived at a conclusion, but I feel like if I were to die tomorrow I would be fine with it. I have no regrets up to this point, but I'd like to continue to find myself and fit the pieces together. There's so much I have yet to do, like finding true love, giving back to humanity, and a number of other things, but even if I die incomplete, I think I could be okay with that. It seems like I'm at peace with myself.
I also have GBAtemp to thank for a number of things: enlightenment, entertainment, friendly and serious advice, and friends. GBAtemp has given me all of these things, and some of them I could not have found by myself. So in short, thank you GBAtemp. You've changed my life in more ways than one. You've kept me going when times were tough and also you've let me help other the same way.
