Well, this has been happening for the past couple weeks now. I will start the story from the beginning.
I don't have the youngest parents around an neither did I have the youngest grandparents either. Both of my grandfathers were dead before I was even born. At the age of 11 my grandmother on my dad's side died and it was first death in the family I have ever experienced so it was really hard. It was bad but I didn't understand all of it because I was still young and I never really saw her that much but nonetheless it was still hard to cope with. Then at the age of 13 my grandmother on my moms side passed away with a sudden heart attack on her 86th birthday. This was very very hard because she lived with us and me and all my siblings were very close to her. She was always there for us and we were always there for her. We all took care of her when she got older and couldn't do a lot of the things she used too. So it was very hard on all of us in the family. So now, all my grandparents are deceased. I didn't even get to meet my grandfathers and my grandmothers died when I was at a fairly early age.
So my grandmother (on my moms sides) best friend was our closest thing we had to a grandmother. Aunt Marge (as we call her, she isn't actually related to us in anyway) is the closest thing all of us have to a grandparent. Just 3 or 4 weeks ago the doctors discovered that she had a brain tumor that is growing rapidly, they found this after her grandson and his wife brought her to the hospital because they thought she was having a stroke. Since that it she has just been rapidly declining and it close to weeks til when she is most likely going to pass. Its really hard for me because she used to babysit me all the time when I was younger and we always had/have a great time when she is over at out house. My mom wants all of us siblings to go see her but I just don't want to which is why I'm sad and angry. I don't want to see her in the way that she is, my mom said that she it has been such a rapid incline since last week that she can't even use her right hand anymore or speak. I am angry at myself for not going but I also want to see her... I don't know...
Sorry for this big wall of text but I just needed to get some of the emotions out and tell someone.
I don't have the youngest parents around an neither did I have the youngest grandparents either. Both of my grandfathers were dead before I was even born. At the age of 11 my grandmother on my dad's side died and it was first death in the family I have ever experienced so it was really hard. It was bad but I didn't understand all of it because I was still young and I never really saw her that much but nonetheless it was still hard to cope with. Then at the age of 13 my grandmother on my moms side passed away with a sudden heart attack on her 86th birthday. This was very very hard because she lived with us and me and all my siblings were very close to her. She was always there for us and we were always there for her. We all took care of her when she got older and couldn't do a lot of the things she used too. So it was very hard on all of us in the family. So now, all my grandparents are deceased. I didn't even get to meet my grandfathers and my grandmothers died when I was at a fairly early age.
So my grandmother (on my moms sides) best friend was our closest thing we had to a grandmother. Aunt Marge (as we call her, she isn't actually related to us in anyway) is the closest thing all of us have to a grandparent. Just 3 or 4 weeks ago the doctors discovered that she had a brain tumor that is growing rapidly, they found this after her grandson and his wife brought her to the hospital because they thought she was having a stroke. Since that it she has just been rapidly declining and it close to weeks til when she is most likely going to pass. Its really hard for me because she used to babysit me all the time when I was younger and we always had/have a great time when she is over at out house. My mom wants all of us siblings to go see her but I just don't want to which is why I'm sad and angry. I don't want to see her in the way that she is, my mom said that she it has been such a rapid incline since last week that she can't even use her right hand anymore or speak. I am angry at myself for not going but I also want to see her... I don't know...
Sorry for this big wall of text but I just needed to get some of the emotions out and tell someone.
