Last month I finally started online courses with Southern New Hampshire University. My first courses being the introduction to Liberal Arts followed by taking courses in studying Social Psychology and the end goal of becoming a religious anthropologist. This has actually been something that I've studied and wanted to teach for the vast majority of my life, something that is deeply personal to me. Religion has always had a major role in sociality, affecting everything from politics, social interactions, and even diets, so it's one of the largest factors that need to be studied to understand society. It's also one of the factors that greatly affect my personal life and how the world has viewed me as a person and thus something I want to understand. Still, these courses have been taking up a lot of my personal time and it's cut into my time I've spent doing anything else online. Which is why I basically just vanished for several days towards the end of October and really haven't been around much this past couple of weeks. I really don't have the time that I used to do dedicate myself to this community. So that's what I've been up to since last month.
There have been a few other things that came up in the past month that also greatly affected my views on this community. To be frank, I don't like what's happened to this community and I honestly find myself becoming less interested as the days go on. I love helping people and I love teaching them about something I personally view as an interesting hobby, but I honestly don't want to keep helping people like I used to. I don't really like the community anymore, it's just far too negative towards each other. I know I had my fair share of shitty comments, but it's just unpleasant most of the time. There's honestly just this feeling that community isn't welcoming anymore and just comes off as rather angry all the time. No one seems to be doing anything for fun anymore and everything seems to be taken extremely seriously to the point where it feels more like a job. I didn't get into this to work, I got into this because I found something I enjoyed and wanted to interact with others who enjoyed the same thing. That doesn't seem to be the case in this scene and it's kind of sad. It's rather obvious that the scene has moved in a different direction and it's very much different from when I started. This seems to be a scene a lot of people are enjoying and seems to be bringing a lot more attention towards the scene, but it's a direction that I just personally don't like. There's just more drama, tired debating, and other issues that seem super popular now that doesn't sit well with me. It's taking a lot of fun out of the community by having every interaction feel like it needs to be something bigger. That's fine if the rest of the community likes it and I am not asking for the community to change me, but it is something I still wanted to say. Maybe it's just me finally outgrowing this community and it's me finally realizing that I need to focus on my life and just now noticing these things that bother me.
The last bit is honestly, my life has actually been getting a lot better. As mentioned before, I am in college now and I am starting hormone replacement therapy in about 5 months. I am working towards my goals and finally building strong goals to achieve my dreams, something I definitely could not say was true last year. I really just don't have the same drive that I had for this community as a did before. I mentioned before that I would be vanishing, but ended up finding more time to keep active. I can safely say that's not the same case anymore, that time is now filled with studies and classes. I am also cutting back on my time online to spend more time enjoying my life. I am not saying I am quitting, just I don't really care to be active nor care to put effort into being active. I care about the projects I follow and I care enough to show up from time to time, but I don't really want to keep making a habit being active.
And the Lilith pic of the blog! Awooo! This one was made by a friend as a request. I've already received permission from the Staff to use this picture.
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There have been a few other things that came up in the past month that also greatly affected my views on this community. To be frank, I don't like what's happened to this community and I honestly find myself becoming less interested as the days go on. I love helping people and I love teaching them about something I personally view as an interesting hobby, but I honestly don't want to keep helping people like I used to. I don't really like the community anymore, it's just far too negative towards each other. I know I had my fair share of shitty comments, but it's just unpleasant most of the time. There's honestly just this feeling that community isn't welcoming anymore and just comes off as rather angry all the time. No one seems to be doing anything for fun anymore and everything seems to be taken extremely seriously to the point where it feels more like a job. I didn't get into this to work, I got into this because I found something I enjoyed and wanted to interact with others who enjoyed the same thing. That doesn't seem to be the case in this scene and it's kind of sad. It's rather obvious that the scene has moved in a different direction and it's very much different from when I started. This seems to be a scene a lot of people are enjoying and seems to be bringing a lot more attention towards the scene, but it's a direction that I just personally don't like. There's just more drama, tired debating, and other issues that seem super popular now that doesn't sit well with me. It's taking a lot of fun out of the community by having every interaction feel like it needs to be something bigger. That's fine if the rest of the community likes it and I am not asking for the community to change me, but it is something I still wanted to say. Maybe it's just me finally outgrowing this community and it's me finally realizing that I need to focus on my life and just now noticing these things that bother me.
The last bit is honestly, my life has actually been getting a lot better. As mentioned before, I am in college now and I am starting hormone replacement therapy in about 5 months. I am working towards my goals and finally building strong goals to achieve my dreams, something I definitely could not say was true last year. I really just don't have the same drive that I had for this community as a did before. I mentioned before that I would be vanishing, but ended up finding more time to keep active. I can safely say that's not the same case anymore, that time is now filled with studies and classes. I am also cutting back on my time online to spend more time enjoying my life. I am not saying I am quitting, just I don't really care to be active nor care to put effort into being active. I care about the projects I follow and I care enough to show up from time to time, but I don't really want to keep making a habit being active.
And the Lilith pic of the blog! Awooo! This one was made by a friend as a request. I've already received permission from the Staff to use this picture.
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