February 17th of 2018, the day my life changed forever. The day that with the help of my ex-girlfriend and my friends helped me leave my then 10-year abusive poly-relationship with my boyfriends. It's been one hell of a year for me, to say the least. A year where I struggled with PTSD, I struggled with depression, I struggled with suicidal levels of self-hate, I struggled to function because 10 years of abuse simply doesn't go away overnight. At the same time, during this past year, I have become so much stronger and my life is so much better as a result of those struggles. During this past year, I started college and I've been a straight-A student despite struggling with so many heavy issues. I never gave up and committed 100% to my classes. Even after I felt like I lost everything when Rhi broke up with me, I still committed to my ensure I continued my studies because I knew I need to succeed. I've reconnected with countless friends that my exes forced out of my life, friends who used to help me through the darkest times and have continued to help me after all these years. I've been going to therapy to deal with my depression and PTSD, something that has greatly improved my mental health and given me some mental clarity. I am going to be starting my hormone replacement therapy next month, something I've eagerly waited for the past 6 months to start and a proud moment as it was actually the first appointment that I set up on my own. I am also moving in with my friend at the end of next week, so I am going to be out of this horrible apartment. Sure, this was a hard year, but it's a year I am actually extremely proud of and I am proud of myself for making it through this year. When I left my exes and they stole nearly everything from me, I didn't know what my future was going to look like, but I managed through it. When I lost Rhi, I wanted to quit everything because I thought my future was over. But instead, I stood back up and continued to move forward. I am so much stronger than I ever realized, I am proud of that fact. I actually have a future and a future that I can rightfully say that I am damn happy to be part of.
I kind of used my emotional Lilith picture a few weeks ago, so here's some plot (drawn by Kei, the artist who actually created Lilith's ref sheet)
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I kind of used my emotional Lilith picture a few weeks ago, so here's some plot (drawn by Kei, the artist who actually created Lilith's ref sheet)
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