Feeling cute, might blog later idk ...
Ok its later.
I got a job offer at the beginning of this year that I took because I was just kind of stagnant. I wanted to go back to school, but I decided to put that off a bit because I felt without purpose. Things have been going well, and while I am very successful and feel accomplishment, I still feel like its nothing more than a means to an end. I suppose I still feel like my true purpose in life lies elsewhere.
I work in an automotive repair facility. I was a mechanic for 15 years and now I'm up front in sales and administration. My last job in the field was very stressful and overbearing as I was a Foreman/Manager, however this one is simply a Service Adviser role. It can be quite enjoyable as my job is basically to talk cars with people, but again, I just feel like I am meant to be doing something else. I don't mind what I do at all, but I feel like something is missing. Something more fulfilling.
I've considered engineering, journalism, freelance writing, micro-electronics repair, A/V production, and various other avenues of work. TBH, I kinda want to do them all. I like learning new things and feeling exhilarated about it. It's quite nice to experience new things and accomplishments. Hell, even failures are enjoyable for me.
This is where I'm a bit rudderless. The means to an end, isn't really going to bring me to the end. It will bring me to the beginning. Philosophically, I guess there is no end. I want to keep growing and experiencing that which interests and fascinates me. I suppose you could say I'm fine with long term goals, and I'm headed where I want to be, but how long can I sustain it without short term goals that will allow me to feed my curious side? You need to feed that which you wish to keep alive.
What's wrong with wanting it all? Why can't I have my cake and eat it too? They say that life is full of sacrifices, but ... fuck that. I'm worth it. I deserve it. I'll work for it til its all mine. I've made up my mind. You can't stop me. They can't stop me. Every door you put in my face I kicked open. Every mountain you put in my path I've climbed over.
I. Will. Not. Lose
Not hope,
Not focus,
Not determination
They will take nothing
I will take it all and there is nothing anyone can do about it
Maybe I don't need a specific direction. Maybe just keep making sure I'm Northbound and stay determined. Maybe the sacrifice isn't losing something(s) along the way, but rather the fact that you can only make the journey of life once, so the sacrifice is time. Enjoy the sacrifice. Enjoy the journey. Enjoy the time. Enjoy the end.
Ok its later.
I got a job offer at the beginning of this year that I took because I was just kind of stagnant. I wanted to go back to school, but I decided to put that off a bit because I felt without purpose. Things have been going well, and while I am very successful and feel accomplishment, I still feel like its nothing more than a means to an end. I suppose I still feel like my true purpose in life lies elsewhere.
I work in an automotive repair facility. I was a mechanic for 15 years and now I'm up front in sales and administration. My last job in the field was very stressful and overbearing as I was a Foreman/Manager, however this one is simply a Service Adviser role. It can be quite enjoyable as my job is basically to talk cars with people, but again, I just feel like I am meant to be doing something else. I don't mind what I do at all, but I feel like something is missing. Something more fulfilling.
I've considered engineering, journalism, freelance writing, micro-electronics repair, A/V production, and various other avenues of work. TBH, I kinda want to do them all. I like learning new things and feeling exhilarated about it. It's quite nice to experience new things and accomplishments. Hell, even failures are enjoyable for me.
This is where I'm a bit rudderless. The means to an end, isn't really going to bring me to the end. It will bring me to the beginning. Philosophically, I guess there is no end. I want to keep growing and experiencing that which interests and fascinates me. I suppose you could say I'm fine with long term goals, and I'm headed where I want to be, but how long can I sustain it without short term goals that will allow me to feed my curious side? You need to feed that which you wish to keep alive.
What's wrong with wanting it all? Why can't I have my cake and eat it too? They say that life is full of sacrifices, but ... fuck that. I'm worth it. I deserve it. I'll work for it til its all mine. I've made up my mind. You can't stop me. They can't stop me. Every door you put in my face I kicked open. Every mountain you put in my path I've climbed over.
I. Will. Not. Lose
Not hope,
Not focus,
Not determination
They will take nothing
I will take it all and there is nothing anyone can do about it
Maybe I don't need a specific direction. Maybe just keep making sure I'm Northbound and stay determined. Maybe the sacrifice isn't losing something(s) along the way, but rather the fact that you can only make the journey of life once, so the sacrifice is time. Enjoy the sacrifice. Enjoy the journey. Enjoy the time. Enjoy the end.
