Depression - What is it?

I honestly don't know why I am writing this. Or why I feel this way. Yet a part of me, feels.... "hurt" - If I had to put more words to it, it feels like a deep pain in my gut, and I feel like at any moment I could cry. And this feeling it feels like it keeps growing and growing.... why? I know this feeling well. From times, I've felt like there wasn't a single solution or a single person out there that wanted to listen. Nothing I do right now, seems to make this feeling go away.... Yet even though I'm in this state, it's like my logical mental state is running at 300%, reminding me, of everything I've done, everything that has passed, of how I have gotten through this, through worse, and while I'm feeling like this, I wonder what is depression? Is it, this feeling? Why is it happening now? It doesn't make sense.... All I know is I want it to go away... but it doesn't, like it's telling me, I've always been this way... always been this broken and hurt. Yet logically, I know that's not true, it can't be true. I feel like, I have done a lot, changed a lot since the last time I was here, since the last time I remember clawing and fighting my way out of here, but here I am, on the verge of tears, and this time, I am honestly scared, because I don't know why.

I guess the only thing for me to do is to reach out for help and just do things. I'm hoping this feeling will go away, maybe not today but with time.
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WD_GASTER2 thats fine.....people have ignored me for 40 years already.....why should I expect anything else?

Try to share my 40 year battle, and some facts, with someone asking for help and this is what happens....in fact I said for OP to figure out if its something serious.
 
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@burial nobody has invalidated you. I believe your experience is important but discarding the takes of others by saying "they dont know what true depression is" is dismissive specially if they have had their own bouts of depression as well. It is not my intention to discard your experience my friend.
 
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It happened to me when I was greatly insecure about my life choices, I felt anxious inside and couldn't eat heavy food and my heart would race, also I felt like I wanted to cry but couldn't, in the end I realized I just need to do what I need to do, and for the rest I do what I want, my pleasures, maybe you should find what you feel you need to do and do it too, everyone needs a purpose, a need to get out of bed, God (Yahweh) can give that to you if you ask him, best wishes to you.
 
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Maybe I have it too.

Sometimes I like to listen to sad music and remember every sad memory/why I am this way because of 1,2 and 3.

Sometimes during the sad music and memories and thoughts. It tingle me and make me cry and I give myself imaginary solutions/ another world .. again and again and again.

These imagination/solutions waste alot of my time. I feel that I want to do it but I cant, I want to do it but I can't.

I may never will because I am now in peace.

It is ok to be like this, I don't have to be like others.

In conclusion I became an artist of sadness. Sometimes I love it.

You are not depressed, you are an artist of sadness. You can easily create sad scenes in your head about your self and others.

You have the art of sadness built in.
 
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Do not regret your past and also do not worry about the future. Both are away from us and only the present is with us. Just concentrate on the present and do whatever you do with conscious. Things become confused when colliding with the things mentally that we cannot change. Depression is the gap that we hope and what we get. Think about the things you have and think about how many people are there helpless than you. Be happy with what you have. Trust yourself and think there no one like you. Each person has different values and different though and cannot be compared to anyone else. Use the space that's been given to you by the god without sinking the grief and pain
 
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This world without life is meaningless and life can't exist Without this world.

If every life form closed there eyes at the same time, would this world exist?
 
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@Mohammed2935 - The answer is yes, because life is simply an organization of matter into a form capable of doing things. We've proven that microbial life can exist in space, so there's no reason there's not another Earth out there.

We're all no better than organic computers with highly sophisticated neural nets that walk on two legs at the end of the day.

Religion, by the way, is absolutely the worst approach to resolving depression because "god" doesn't exist in a measurable sense and won't save anyone from psychological problems. In fact, any sort of religion is more likely to make someone go off the deep end if they aren't already religious. So take that shit elsewhere.
 
a repitition without change. Addiction, inmotivation, hatred for ones self, comparing one self to others, lack of socialism, abuse. There are plenty of causes to depression it's a mental feeling of distress.
Your mind telling you that there is something wrong. Often times people look for quick fixes to a solution, but that doesn't make a problem solved. I deal with my own depression. I'd say a severe addiction the internet. One thing I recently learned from a show is that there are 2 of us. Like the left and right brain when your on the internet you may be yourself, but you are also someone else. One being anonymity, one being you. That of anonymity would often say things they wouldn't say otherwise. Criticism, cyber bullying, we may show our real face from the offline, but it's why that human side of you can be depressed of existance well the other may consume your life.

Don't get lost online you might not be able to find your way outside.

IF you have friends online search for other means of interaction via talking on the phone or face to face calls try to limit yourself from your anon self. Know that you have value. (:
 
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@chaoskagami you are stupid by the way by the way because what I meant of the (world) is time, space, matter and other in discovered things. If we aren't here space and you don't have meaning.

What I am saying is like a doctor in a forest has no meaning and power so nothing will celebrate his existence. However, we humans, smart being gave him/her meaning and power then celebrate it.
 
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Notice that I didn't resort to calling you names, @Mohammed2935. You have resorted to calling me "stupid" because you have no valid counterargument. "If a tree falls in the forest and nobody hears it, does it make a sound?" You've corrupted this statement into "a doctor in a forest" because you inherently realize it's the same exact thing, and you've also moved the goalposts here.

Regardless, this is really not a topic for a thread about wanting help with depression, so I'll abstain from feeding you any further material.
 
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@ chaoskagami keep your info and feed it to your ass hehe.

I wasn't talking to you ok, I was trying to help her.

I am sure she is fine now.

Do you think that you got like that you are know it all ass hole.
 
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Well some advice for you at least what I have done and do.

1.It is True that your Diet plays a big part plenty of Water especially.

2.Sleep is essential and Key to Recovery.

3.Listen to Music you like it can help bring you out of it or bring you down if you listen to the wrong thing.

4.Get plenty of Air and Breath take Deep Breaths being outside whether it be through Window just sit and chill or stand outside and gather your thoughts.

5.Walking go for Walks and get Air about you and Breath which I still occasionally do you can even combine Music with headphones and bottles of Water.

6.Have a good Cry it is not weak to Cry it is a way of releasing the pent up energy and emotions within your Mind and Body.

7.Scream no joke either have a good Scream into a pillow or go somewhere with no one around and let it all out I still do this occasionally and it helps to release pent up energy and emotions. (Primal Scream)

8.Most important whether you Believe or not is up to you but talk to God not some Preacher God.

You are more than mere atoms, chemicals, and electrons anyone who believes that has every reason to be depressed your life is pretty meaningless.

The Truth is we are more than we know and credit each other for so look at yourself in the mirror focus on just below your eyes because you are more and you are priceless remember that and anytime you feel that pain remember that you are more.



I hope this helps God Bless.
 
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Hi everyone. I've read through the comments left. I still haven't gone to see a professional... I've just been doing my best to manage it on my own, by keeping myself busy with my job and surrounding myself with friends. Tho... with that being said, I will look into getting professional help if I feel this feeling grow again or if I feel I can no longer manage it.

As for those who have suggested religion. I have tried that in the past. All I have to say about it is, that for the people it has worked for and continues to work for, God bless. As for me, my mind could and will never get around the fact that God would help someone as "gifted" or "blessed" as I am, and I'm OK with that.
 
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You don't need god but you need our help?

Believe in God is a life style not just asking for help.

You should at least look at them and pick what fits you. No one told you to go extreme.

You may think that you never needed god but your parents or great great parents took few standards from religion and passed them to you hehe.
 
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@Temptress Cerise That's a good idea. Religions prey upon people who are depressed and will try to do whatever they can to make you dependent upon them so that you will be cut off from others who are actually helpful as opposed to...well, shit like this:



Which is a part of a conglomeration of churches that supports this family with no problems whatsoever /s.



Just don't get yourself backed into a corner with a job in retail...
 
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hey not sure if you will read this, but can you send me a PM? I would like to discuss something with you. Its not religion related or anything like that. Just a minute of your time if you will.
 
God and religion are not the same.

God is God.

There are many religions.

When I said talk to God I literally mean it you dont need to go to any church and although not every church or whatever is in it for money or to take advantage.

However everyone has their own path in life and it is ultimately up to them how they want to live with that said I wish you luck because I have been in very dark places and found the light Godbless.
 
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I agree with CORE, God is not religion, please don't think you can get to know God through religions, trust me, God is a best friend that you can get to know and learn to trust, but people and churches who say they represent God likely don't as you could see through their actions if you knew Him and how He is, I guess 90-95% of these Churches don't know God and don't want to, they want what they want and couldn't care less about God, most churches are fake and not churches, most "pastors" aren't pastors basically, they just use religion, and God's word as a tool for control like the Antagonist of the Book of Eli. If you really want to know God, you have to get to know Him either by reading about Him or listening to someone who ACTUALLY knows him (I recommend reading, since ANYONE including me can lie to you, but God's word can't lie, but you probably aren't interested you did say you "tried" it in the past), if you choose to read, I recommend reading the book of John in the EXB version of the Bible, obviously Josh Duggar's family's Church wasn't really following Christ. Probably following the traditions of man instead and that let to those wicked actions. You really need somethin' to do and a good reason to do it I think, not having anything to do = emptiness, God gives that to people.
 
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