Today I did something that has finally changed my life.
Today I faced up to the greatest demon that was still part of my life.
Last year on Saint Patrick's day I was attacked well riding my bike through an area that I thought was safe. Well I was riding a man came running up to me and started pushing me and trying to force me off my bike, luckily I was able to keep balance on the bike and escape what was happening. I was so afraid that I kept riding and riding till I ran into my grandparent's car and told them what happened. Finally when I got home. I was so upset, I just kept crawled up and cried till I was able to talk to Mike, then I just bottled up the problem trying to pass it off as just being lucky that I got out just fine, only to have that torment with nightmares and thoughts of what could have happened, for one whole week till I told the school counselor what happened and she helped me file a police report. As great as that felt and it even helped me get over most of the nightmares and mostly move on. I still never went back to that sight (well not alone or without getting out as fast as possible) till today. Today I stood right in front of the very building where I was attacked and stared at it, only to realize that I was now safe. The building was empty and so was all the buildings around it, but most of all I felt safe again. The thing that scared me now seemed so small now that I finally able to face it.
I feel so proud of myself for finally facing that problem.
Today I faced up to the greatest demon that was still part of my life.
Last year on Saint Patrick's day I was attacked well riding my bike through an area that I thought was safe. Well I was riding a man came running up to me and started pushing me and trying to force me off my bike, luckily I was able to keep balance on the bike and escape what was happening. I was so afraid that I kept riding and riding till I ran into my grandparent's car and told them what happened. Finally when I got home. I was so upset, I just kept crawled up and cried till I was able to talk to Mike, then I just bottled up the problem trying to pass it off as just being lucky that I got out just fine, only to have that torment with nightmares and thoughts of what could have happened, for one whole week till I told the school counselor what happened and she helped me file a police report. As great as that felt and it even helped me get over most of the nightmares and mostly move on. I still never went back to that sight (well not alone or without getting out as fast as possible) till today. Today I stood right in front of the very building where I was attacked and stared at it, only to realize that I was now safe. The building was empty and so was all the buildings around it, but most of all I felt safe again. The thing that scared me now seemed so small now that I finally able to face it.
I feel so proud of myself for finally facing that problem.
