How I was bullied out of my school in 8th grade. Personal and long-winded..

Just finished reading all that. That must've been pretty though on you, don't really know what to say. >.<"

That was awful... But i guess you turn a great and courageous woman cause it's not easy to tell stories about bullying, specially when involves things like first kiss and virginity.

And i know how you feel, when you're alone at school and no one talks with you... it's pretty rough.

I guess those things made you the woman you are today, and sharing that story maybe you'll help someone.

Wow. I don't know what to say other than to +1 everything Harumy wrote. And thank you for letting me read the blog.

Wow...Harumy +9001.

This experience has obviously turned you into a stronger person because of it, because I know if something like this would've happened to me I wouldn't be able to tell the story...I applaud you, exangel, for being strong and brave with posting this story.

It had to take a lot of strength to type all that out and submit it here.
Even more to actually live through it all.
I never understood bullying when I was in school, and I sure as hell don't understand it now.
Hate that you had to go through this, Katrina. But I'm honored you would share the story with us.

Some people commit suicide after incidents like that.
Some people mope for the rest of their lives and allow it to keep them from being happy. Ever.
Some people keep their head up and remain strong, knowing it won't last forever. And in the end, they tend to lead better lives and become better people.


You're in the last group.

I'm sorry that happened to you, but I'm glad you stayed strong.

Wow, I didn't even know about this; I found it by accident when I was messing with settings for my blogs.

Even though Sam took your virginity, he didn't take your dignity. I'm happy to hear that you had the strength and courage to face everything, even when your closest friends finally left your side.

People can be influential, powerful, successful and have everything they want in life, but unless they've hit rock-bottom and learned the meaning of suffering, they can't be considered truly great people. I'm sure that going through such a horrible experience so early in life put a lot in perspective for you and made you a much better person for it.

Thank you for letting me read this.

I...really can't put into words how I feel about this..you've been through quite a lot at such a time in your life...

Most people would have made very bad life altering decisions after such a thing, I'm glad you decided to go on with your life in a good way.

[quote name='Nujui' timestamp='1327116026'] I...really can't put into words how I feel about this..you've been through quite a lot at such a time in your life...Most people would have made very bad life altering decisions after such a thing, I'm glad you decided to go on with your life in a good way. [/quote]

Thanks.. it was hard. It took great discipline and faith, and learning to discern what real love is, without lust.. a difficult thing to learn by ones' self. I traveled a lot in my later teens, all over the US and even to Canada. I searched for my soul, but I don't think I've found that I was a whole human being (and stayed *sane* throughout) until these past couple months.

I developed Schizoaffective disorder but wasn't correctly diagnosed until 2006. I was diagnosed as bipolar when I was 15, which didn't make getting help fruitful, when I lost my way.

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[quote name='Nujui' timestamp='1327116026'] I...really can't put into words how I feel about this..you've been through quite a lot at such a time in your life...Most people would have made very bad life altering decisions after such a thing, I'm glad you decided to go on with your life in a good way. [/quote] Thanks.. it was hard. It took great discipline and faith, and learning to discern what real love is, without lust.. a difficult thing to learn by ones' self. I traveled a lot in my later teens, all over the US and even to Canada. I searched for my soul, but I don't think I've found that I was a whole human being (and stayed *sane* throughout) until these past couple months. I developed Schizoaffective disorder but wasn't correctly diagnosed until 2006. I was diagnosed as bipolar when I was 15, which didn't make getting help fruitful, when I lost my way.
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Yeah...I've had also had some problems as well during school. I'm partly autistic (Sometimes I talk too fast and I forget what I was thinking, and sometimes it takes me a min to think of a simple word as "blanket" sometimes), I also had to take special lessons for my first 3 years of school because I couldn't walk straight. I'm doing better now on both of my problems though

If you're talking about Asperger's, I understand completely. Two of the best friends I've had in my life have Asperger's.

I just found that you added me to your blog too, thanks.

I don't know what to tell about what you had to go through.
I was a little bullied between 11-13 years old too, but never to the point to involve the principal or a school change.
Events at that age forge your personality which affects all future decisions of your life.
You said you found yourself only few months ago, it took a lot of years to "heal" from a short period of your childhood.

Maybe finding few people you have confidence into (here) to talk about it helped you.
We are not real friends you can call and meet, but there's people you can talk to whom you know are not judging you.

[quote name='Cyan' timestamp='1327240858'] I just found that you added me to your blog too, thanks.I don't know what to tell about what you had to go through.I was a little bullied between 11-13 years old too, but never to the point to involve the principal or a school change.Events at that age forge your personality which affects all future decisions of your life.You said you found yourself only few months ago, it took a lot of years to "heal" from a short period of your childhood.Maybe finding few people you have confidence into (here) to talk about it helped you.We are not real friends you can call and meet, but there's people you can talk to whom you know are not judging you. [/quote]
I got all tearey. I'm glad you found this. I didn't PM everyone I authorized. And I didn't authorize everyone on my friends list either. Didn't want to, well. do this for attention -.- I still have a lot of self consciousness about the idea that , that i did any of that for the attention. I did it because I was naive and lonely and I suffered a great deal of consequences.

Also, @Cyan, as far as to "heal" from that.. there were other indirect consequences to it, but what really wrecked my heart in my adult life was being rejected by the mother of the love of my life, and having to end a relationship that WAS on the track to preparing to start a family. Someone who knew me since I was 14 and was my friend through all that time in my life but especially after Eric died and I didn't know where to go after ending a sour relationship in New York.
But that all is for another blog, maybe another day. Don't know quite where to start, but I'll get it out, in due time.

You are a very strong, intelligent, brave, courageous, and wonderful person. It's one thing to go through something like this and make it out with your head held high- that alone is amazing- but to be able to tell the story is also so brave. I'm very glad that I have the chance to know someone who is so strong. I think you are an amazing person, and I'm lucky to know you.

Everyone, and I do mean everyone gets bullied at some point in life. It is often the very reason many bullies become... well.. bullies. The only difference between a stumbling block anda stepping stone is the way you choose to use it. The fact is, the worse thing that ever happens to yu can be made the best that ever happens to you. IF you don't let it get the best of you. All things being equal, We all have freedom, freedom of choice. To choose a healthy path or an unhealthy one. it is sometimes hard to tell which is which though. What we are not free from is the consequences of those choices. Enen the consequences can be made valueable when we examine it in the proper light though. You never mentioned the continued results of your mothers Dr. friend though.. I've traveled the country may times (over 60 times) due to my work, and am familiar with those locales. I've lived in NYC and in Tucson AZ, heck even lived in Tombstone for half a year. Now I'm in Florida, the nicest weather and the toughest to stomach as the average native mentality leaves a great deal to be desired. I'd like to relay a poem actually it is part of the Sanscrit proverb,... and relates to the experiences you have come through..

"Look well to this day for it is life, the very life of life, in it's brief course lie all the realities and verities of existance; the bliss of growth, the splendor of action and the glory of power. Every yesterday if but a dream, every tomorrow a hope... but TODAY, well Lived, makes every yesterday a dream of happiness and every tomorrow a vision of hope. Look well to this day."
I would enjoy an invite to read more any time you would like thank you.