I just want to cry and die...

Best advice I can give:

Don't just give up. It doesn't solve anything. It only creates sadness for your family or anyone else close to you.
Life fluctuates a lot. It's not a constant state of happiness all of the time, for anyone. You can get through it, man.

Hell, I wish I could cease to exist as well, but it's not something I could do. Like, I've never contemplated suicide or anything like that, I just don't feel motivated at all to do anything with my life sometimes. But now I always think that someday, I can make things better for myself.

You're young. Live life. Take it day by day if you have to, just try to make a goal for yourself. Then work towards it.
Happiness can't be very far away.

Dude i see you everyday at school if there's something up you should try telling me...and don't say you do cause you don't

I plead with you not to think or attempt suicide again. As much as it may ease your pain, it would just cause greater pain for those around you. To be honest, suicide is selfish.

Sometimes you may think you're in the worst possible situation than any person alive on the planet, but I guarantee that there are a LOT more people in the world who have it worse, yet they continue to live. They strive for life because there is something worth living for, even if they don't know what it is yet. It may be hard when the problems are staring you in the face, but strength comes to those that focus on shoving those problems to the side and looking forward to the unknown. It may take years before you can accept that suicide is not the way, but until then, you've got to strive.

School can be hard when things go wrong. I urge you to try and focus on your studies, no matter how hard that might be. If you don't understand something, then ask. I would rather feel embarrassed about a question that may seem simple to everyone else and understand it better than to stay silent, not understand it, and continue to have difficulty later on. Does your school have tutors? Let me share with you something about me. I was considered to have a mental disorder back in elementary school because I would not saying anything in class, and a lot of times I would have words mixed up. I went to Speech class every day until the 6th grade to improve. English classes from middle school and high school were hard for me because of my difficulty, though I had improved from before. Now, here I am, years later, in my last semester of college before I graduate with my bachelors, having gone through reading/writing -intensive classes, passing with over-acceptable grades. Not flying colors, but still rather good. It was a long and hard road, but here I am nonetheless, at the end of this road, leading on to another. Do I still have a problem with being silent and getting words mixed up? Yes, but my efforts have helped me to tolerate it, and catch myself before I mess up.

So you've been to a therapist. Excuse me for being a bit personal, but why are you rejecting what the therapist says? Is it because it wasn't your choice to go? As much as it may seem like the therapist might not help, I'd urge you to reconsider. The therapist may very well have the answer. What you should do is be open to it, just like how you are trying to be open to us for advice. There are many thing we as people don't want to do because of pride, but sometimes we have to do them anyways, and we improve because of them.

I am sorry for the loss of your best friend, but would that friend want you to commit suicide? I may just be a random person, but even I don't think suicide is the answer.

I can't really help you with the girlfriend thing (since I don't have one) other than say that there are plenty of fish in the sea. If you couldn't see yourself in years time being with the same person, then chances are that it wasn't meant to be. There is always someone out there.

If your last friend (who betrayed you) was always that kind of person, then imo, good riddance. If that was their kind of character, then they'd have betrayed you soon enough anyways. Better earlier than later. There are always chances on making new friends. It may require that you put yourself out there, and you may be uncomfortable about it, but how else can you get friends? Heck, I'm an extremely shy person (partly because of my past problems), and have an extremely hard time making new friends, but I do make them when I get out of my comfort zone and just be myself.

Is there anything you like doing? If you are active in things you enjoy, that makes for less time thinking about things like suicide. Can't think of anything? Then try something new.

Again, from an individual that has problems as well, I plead with you not to undertake your attempt at suicide.

The problem you are having is that you are forced to feel that you must live up to certain standards. Create your own standards and don't let other people do it for you.

Do not be worried, bro. All what you need to do is have faith in your self. I suggest you do your hobbies, enjoy your life, get outside of your house, and get something to do like a job and get away from your house. I hope things get better.

Dude! suicide is illegal, don't do it !!

Anyways just take everything positively. like they say everything is always for the good for all.

Don't give up. Depression is a terrible cycle, and you can't get out it without some help. (If that's medical or not, it's your call.) Also, our society is strange in that it treats the lack of happiness as a symptom...it's weird. Happiness and sadness are on a continuum. It means that you can have emotions in between.

Talk to someone about it. And find something that you are passionate about. It can be your hobbies, or anything else. I was the computer geek in high school, and that was awesome.

I don't know your situation and I don't claim to know what's best but I know a little bit of science. A great way to fight depression is to excercise... if you go to your school gym and lift or run a lot you should be getting an endorphin drop that will lift your spirits temporarily. This will take some of the edge off feeling bummed but you'll also gain self esteem when you start being in better shape than your peers. Not only this but most guys at a gym or in school with you might seem daunting at first but you might actually make friends who want to better thamselves too.

Excercise like this also oxygenates your brain which has been proven to improve fuctions. You'll actally learn better for school and you'l attract more women looking and feeling more pride.

I find "other people have it worse" only makes people feel more pathetic and I would avoid giving it as advice. I would rather tell you that if yo want to make yourself feel better this is the way to do it. And if you don't do something to make yourself feel better than you probably want to be upset. It sounds ridiculous but it happens to people, they prefer feeling crappy and choose not to fix it. I hope you'll find the need to improve the situation. Best of luck.

[quote name='DiscostewSM' timestamp='1328332477']I am sorry for the loss of your best friend, but would that friend want you to commit suicide? I may just be a random person, but even I don't think suicide is the answer.[/quote]
This.
This.
So many times, this.

I lost my best friend on August 3, 2003. And yet, he is the reason I'm still alive.
He made me swear to him in his last few weeks, that I'd never intentionally hurt myself or take my life. So I honor that promise, as I honor my will to show his father that his son's life gives me strength even 8 1/2 years later. I even got a tattoo on my back to memorialize him in 2004, after I was completely sure of what I wanted to get.

You can get through this struggle, but you must have the will to do so.
To give in to the despair, is to give up on those who did (do) love you... and were (are) there for you.

This is the problem with kids today, think they got problems and they plot suicide. News flash, the world isnt rainbows and ponies were your going to be happy. Its hard. Who cares if you have no friends? Alot of people have NOTHING Iterally NOTHING. You got acess to a computer and internet. Right there you just lost all right to whine about your life, and if you have time to come here then you probally got a house, food, and clothing. People die. Thats the world. Your friends are gonna die. Your parents are gonna die. Your gonna die. But you gotta remeber the dead dont like company. Maybe im harsh but Ive seen too much shit like this to sweet talk people about it anymore.