Hi

Hey, about like the past how long I've been here, I've always had this just really harsh and just retarded behavior, and I'd just like to say eh yeah sorry. I really dont know what else I should say. I just ran off the site and I never really actually took time to fucking think about my actions or anything I guess. I dunno, times were a little different for me at the time. Not too long from the creation of DoggaDude, I had to deal with my mom and my dad divorcing and a very brutal event where I had to endure them threatning to murder each other while they were driving around, my dad busted my mom out of jail and my dad thought it would be a good idea after everything. I don't really wanna go further, I just don't even need sympathy Im just explaining my behaviors. But instead of doing anything sensible, you instead opted for, i don't really remember what you said, but it really kinda hurt me, but it changed me for the better, for I was exposed to a side of the world kids like me never see. I see how my peers are misguided and are vulnerable to the evils of the world. And I was revealed to this emotion by you, and I thank you. For the hate, I found myself. I may feel sorry for some kids my age and how they can get into mishaps, but its sad to expirence their cruleness and stupidity. They don't really understand things such as people and their differences. They're not misguided. They're foolish. If kids knew I had aspergers and a major depressive disorder, they wouldn't try and give me help, like my step mom or dad would, they'd greet me with nothing but disgust. I can't really go back on seeing the world this way, and that's fine. Most children are into the worst things, and get invloved into the worst things, whether it be as light as just a unfunny and painfully normal spoiled hillbilly, to drinking and smoking at ages lower than 15. What will saying this change at all? Nothing, I just needed to excuse my behaviors, and maybe come back, because I have no where else to go. I wouldn't care if i get meeted by hatred, or if this account gets deleted, I just would like to say hi again, or it depends on you if this is goodbye. You don't even have to say a word. Just move on with your day and forget about me again. But for now, I'm okay. I'm not in trouble. I have concidered taking my own life but I have been getting help from my family, my therapist, and I take anti depressents. I think I'm okay for now. Maybe someday this post will just vanish, and everything will be fine again, and I can gleefully waste my stupid little free time on this website. I'm guessing after what I just said, I'm guessing no. All I can say is thank you.