Man, I had been a terrible friend in the past.
A bit of background,
Last year I had fooled around with a girl who had a boyfriend.
This year I have vowed to many people that I will have nothing to do with her aside from hanging out.
I plan to keep that promise.
Anyway, this isn't what this is about.
Since I've decided not to do such things I've had a different perspective on her and who she associates with.
(Read: Has sex with, or at least supposedly has sex with)
Now, I'll be relatively blunt, I get jealous kinda easily.
And she's an attractive girl, and good friend, so it's not like my feelings for her go away in a snap.
(Also not to say I wouldn't date anyone, if there's another girl in the picture, this girl is truly just a friend I have no feelings for)
But being stuck at home has its downsides when it comes to dating.
Aaaaaaaaaaaanyway, the guys she either has sex with or we suspect her to be having sex with make it quite obvious that they are, in fact, fucking.
And from a new outside perspective of this matter, I've come to realize I was no better at hiding it.
Hell, it was worse since now it really doesn't matter who she's having sex with.
But seriously, the bodily contact, the covering up with the same blanket even when it's fucking 80 degrees inside, the never leaving her side when she leaves the room, I was no better.
I'll admit it's hard to watch, and really, it's not only because I still am kinda into her, it's just obnoxious.
PDA is bad enough, but supposedly hidden things are just plain annoying.
If she wasn't just sleeping around with one of those guys, I'd be fine with it.
The fact that the guys think it's a secret is getting to me.
As I say that, though, it just makes me more of an asshole.
I had been doing that for months, putting my friends through the shit that I'm supposedly going through, cept I was worse.
Sure, I feel bad for helping her cheat, but the more I see this, the shittier I feel for putting my friends through this shit.
But I'm glad we're all still friends, dunno what I'd do without them.
On a more personal note, Jon, take it or leave it, but figured like sharing to an anonymous community as always.
I promise you guys, next blog I post will actually be amusing.
Just as a preview, I've started a job working with adults with autism.
Not a day goes by that is truly boring.
Can't mention any names, but I can talk about some of the stuff that goes on, and I'm sure it beats your shitty job!
Heh, anyway, thanks for reading if you did.
Peace!
[youtube]Coto3544TRE[/youtube]
A bit of background,
Last year I had fooled around with a girl who had a boyfriend.
This year I have vowed to many people that I will have nothing to do with her aside from hanging out.
I plan to keep that promise.
Anyway, this isn't what this is about.
Since I've decided not to do such things I've had a different perspective on her and who she associates with.
(Read: Has sex with, or at least supposedly has sex with)
Now, I'll be relatively blunt, I get jealous kinda easily.
And she's an attractive girl, and good friend, so it's not like my feelings for her go away in a snap.
(Also not to say I wouldn't date anyone, if there's another girl in the picture, this girl is truly just a friend I have no feelings for)
But being stuck at home has its downsides when it comes to dating.
Aaaaaaaaaaaanyway, the guys she either has sex with or we suspect her to be having sex with make it quite obvious that they are, in fact, fucking.
And from a new outside perspective of this matter, I've come to realize I was no better at hiding it.
Hell, it was worse since now it really doesn't matter who she's having sex with.
But seriously, the bodily contact, the covering up with the same blanket even when it's fucking 80 degrees inside, the never leaving her side when she leaves the room, I was no better.
I'll admit it's hard to watch, and really, it's not only because I still am kinda into her, it's just obnoxious.
PDA is bad enough, but supposedly hidden things are just plain annoying.
If she wasn't just sleeping around with one of those guys, I'd be fine with it.
The fact that the guys think it's a secret is getting to me.
As I say that, though, it just makes me more of an asshole.
I had been doing that for months, putting my friends through the shit that I'm supposedly going through, cept I was worse.
Sure, I feel bad for helping her cheat, but the more I see this, the shittier I feel for putting my friends through this shit.
But I'm glad we're all still friends, dunno what I'd do without them.
On a more personal note, Jon, take it or leave it, but figured like sharing to an anonymous community as always.
I promise you guys, next blog I post will actually be amusing.
Just as a preview, I've started a job working with adults with autism.
Not a day goes by that is truly boring.
Can't mention any names, but I can talk about some of the stuff that goes on, and I'm sure it beats your shitty job!
Heh, anyway, thanks for reading if you did.
Peace!
[youtube]Coto3544TRE[/youtube]
