RAIKA HERE :3
Sup. It's my birthday today yadayada, I'm bored to death. I don't have many friends, so yeah, I'm all alone in my room browsing the web, listening to music and stuff. I don't feel like playing any games now, so w/e. Hmm... I like cake, but I don't like eating, I'm weird.
Blogging is a way to pass time, but I guess I'll try to keep myself occupied as long as possible. Uhh... Let's see, life lately is average, I said I would study but I haven't studied seriously
for like a week... Ehh... Never mind. I just realized that most of the music in my music folder are J-songs... Most of them being anime stuff, but w/e. I'm getting bored of typing already but heh.
for like a week... Ehh... Never mind. I just realized that most of the music in my music folder are J-songs... Most of them being anime stuff, but w/e. I'm getting bored of typing already but heh.
I don't feel like doing anything now, I just want to sleep... But I'm not tired... Gah... I've always wondered why people celebrate birthdays, I mean it's just another normal day right? Hmm I blame my curious mind. I feel like I've gotten a lot calmer lately... But I've gotten rather dull as well, being rather emotionless and stuff. My few friends tell me that I space out often, but I don't need them to tell me that, I'm well aware of it.
I'm posting in paragraphs cos I can't stand huge walls of text, so I'm thinking "If I don't like reading huge walls of text, I guess I shouldn't post like that too" blah blah. Anyway I guess I'll relax for the whole of my birthday. Meh, I planned my studying timetable so diligently, only to not follow it. *sigh*
Shoop, I don't really like my family much, but what can I do? Stupid brothers being plain idiots, but w/e I won't let them ruin my mood. I haven't received any gifts yet apart from some cash my grandmother gave me, but I don't really mind. I'm not the gift type anyway, I wish I can travel back in time, looking forward to presents from relatives on my birthday every year. *sigh*, I guess this is what you call growing up.
WTF I'm 16 already? Holy crap, I can still remember my birthday last year like it was just yesterday... I remember giving my brother a birthday bashing last year on my birthday (even though it wasn't his birthday...) for stealing my PSP memory stick... Man why must people provoke me when I don't piss people off.
I guess most of you won't read till here anyway, but w/e I'm posting cos I want to. I rarely get into fights now. :/ At school I haven't gotten into a fight since 2008... Man what the hell I'm too calm, so now people start looking down on me cos I just brush everything off (... most of the time friendly teasing) with a smile. I guess it's good, cos I don't make many enemies, but at the same time I don't make many friends cos I'm quiet as hell...
I'm gonna get my grades up somehow, after all in this time and age without good grades I won't be able to live comfortably... I always thought to myself that GRADES AREN'T EVERYTHING, GRADES AREN'T EVERYTHING... But somehow over time that mentality changed, and now I'm worried about my grades. My friend said that I have quite a lot of white hair...
MOOOOOOOOOOOOGLE
... I just felt like doing that, no particular reason.
... I just felt like doing that, no particular reason.
I should lock my computer in my cupboard again. When it was still locked I could study and focus, but ever since I took it out to do a certain project (which I didn't end up doing at all...) I end up coming on GBAtemp everyday now... I need to get a grip ugh. -_-
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My last guitar string snapped! Now I can't play the guitar as a past time... *sigh*, my guitar lessons got canceled, my guitar is in bad shape (it was a used one, but I was stupid back then and bought it at the full price of a new guitar...) and I don't have any strings... And I can't replace my strings before fixing the damn guitar first... And I'm not on good terms with my mother (haven't talked to her in a week) so now I'm stuck at home doing nothing.
I've been reading more manga lately instead of watching anime. I used to be all anti-manga and all for anime, but I guess that changed after I realized that mangas have more story (extended or w/e) than their anime counterparts, and the art style of mangas are so much better than an anime's, I guess that's how I have more manga bookmarked now.
You guys must be wondering why I 'm posting in different colors, well, there isn't a particular reason, I just wanted to "brighten up the place" hehe... Never mind lame pun. I'm actually more comfortable talking to random strangers on the internet than talking to someone I know face to face. I'm no good with people, and I can't hold conversations. Whenever I get talked to I either just reply with one sentence or laugh/smile (everytime I laugh/smile is because I couldn't hear the other person well, but can't be bothered to go "I peg your bardon?").
This is the first time I've written such a long blog... Actually I don't even blog much. I don't have a facebook/twitter/msn and whatnot which is so popular in my school (more like all over the world) these days. I just can't see why I should be following the crowd... Okay maybe I can get to know people better but like I said I'm not good with people. I like writing though, I like making up my own stories and stuff.
Surprisingly even though I don't speak much I'm always highest in my class when there's a speaking/oral (sickos) or whatever test. I dunno why, but I can speak well somehow when I'm serious. I'm good in English at school, and can score well for essays and stuff (I have a reputation for being best in English... Somewhat). But whenever I'm not in the mood for writing I get a mediocre score (cos I rush and finish early then put my head down on the desk and sleep). :1
Wow look so much time has passed since I started typing this blog! I guess I really like writing don't I? Heh. I feel like I can express myself through words. Words are magical. :B Anyway I love GBAtemp, I managed to make so many good friends when I came here. I guess GBAtemp changed a part of me, but I don't really know what changed (except for my grades, I know they went downhill :D.
I just killed a lizard yesterday, I smacked it with a newspaper sword that I specially crafted for this purpose and OHKOed it. Wow. I've always been afraid of lizards. Lizard phobia. Many times even though a lizard is in striking range, I always freeze up and let my fear get the better of me. So I guess after taking that lizard down I managed to overcome my fear slightly. I still have a long way to go though... *shrugs*
Anyway I don't feel like typing anymore, so I guess I'll just slack somewhere and pass time, Ciao. I hope to make more friends here (my friend list has expanded a lot since I first came here :O) and I hope I can enjoy my life more and have more self esteem (did I mention that I'm really reserved and somehow keep thinking that I'm always in the wrong if something happens?). So yeah...
Raika out~
