Serious business. (The last stand)

During the last week a may, i joined this site 2 months ago, i liked being here, it was okay. But now is a problem for me i want to talk about.

Unfortunatly, some of you know i have been diagnosed with Aspergers syndrome, and i been receiving disability income known as State supplement program, or Social security income for disability and unemployment. My mom informed me that i been discotinued from it and won't be able to pay both bills for rent and cable. So i may not be here much longer among you.

My mom and dad argue a lot, about money and helping each other out, as of now, my dad pays no bills in the house he has his name on the lease and internet bills as head of house and stuff and is very unfair to me and mom. I hate it, i really don't consider him my dad as of now. My mom is currently trying to get things situated, if is sucessful, i can return and still live where i do. As of now, is deciding between paying rent to live, and managing money for food for me my younger sister and mom, as my dad is selfish and has money to support only himself and lacks care for anyone else.

I hope things get sorted, i'm kinda scared to be honest cause i don't wanna lose this place i find comfort in. But as of now, i don't have much choice. No money, more problems. I'm not really asking for help or handouts, i just wanted to let people know if anyone cares or may be curious. I always have problems like this and this one hit hardest compared to things like bullies in school. Where is stands right now, no job options are available, and new york in general is a very distasteful place to be. Is awful to me and we are stuck and hoping to find someway out.

Not sure what else to say at this point but it sucks a lot. I dunno when or why these problems occur but when they do is very unnoticable, since our mail system is unreliable and stuff gets misguided all the time. So i will hope to see a solution fixed where i may be able to speak happy and more comfortable. So hope you all enjoy rest of summer.
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I too went through a rough time recently and just want to let you know it WILL get better. My thoughts are with you and your family.
 
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Thabks you for the wishes. And all I can say is that it is pretty similar for me. All I can say is cross your fingers and pray. Hope you are OK! Just stay positive! :lol::D
 
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Thanks, but not to sound mean or offensive, it doesn't help me feel better right now. My mom is on the phone in panic. She hope to get problem resolved before total loss of the internet which is also cable and telephone. :(
 
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Do you feel comfort in that house? After all dat shit? Consider going to police if smthng goes wrong... at least consider it an option in bad situations...
Try talking to someone who understands shit like this (psychologist or smthng) to give u ideas of what to do and advices
Also ppl on net are mean sometimrs dont pay attention to bad ppl. Also in real life
Try learning self defence from youtube and other places while u still have internet. It may come in handy, and will never be waste of time...
Sorry uf I said something bad or made u feel bad with my shit. Just its allways good to prepare for the worst.
I have myself been in police one time after my parents hit me and throw me outa house, they only sent us to buncha psychologists (which didnt help) but now parents are afraid of being imprisoned. I do love them, but I wanna keep my safety.
 
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And I meant to say that u should watch the vids of sd w/o parents knowledge. Just to keep em less nervous.
Also if its in this moments decided if youll have internet- download sd vids as fast as u can....
 
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Money aint bad. If we will use rocks or something instead ppl will stay greedy.
The problem is with us, the ppl. Please stop being gready everyone!
Money can do lotta good stuff. And please consider my advice of learning self defence. Sitting in fear wont make any good to noone. It may also distract u from the bad shit that happens
 
I just dislike talking about it, discussing it, and having it. It just a type of privilage to continue living. Is just reasons like this i don't understand my life. But i'm trying to handle it.
 
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Im with ya, believe me ive been through worst shit then this. If youre more then 15 also try finding a place for living in for eorst case scenario.
 
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Also them arguing dont mean you should be a bad person or die. Dont commit a suicide, its a real shitty idea
 
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No one is committing suicide. Is just a financial issue that needs to be solved. But as of now, is a problem for me, and i will try what i can. After ananlyzing the situation and anticipating the outcome, it looks very not in my favor, and the short timing window of oppertunity won't help improve it. :unsure:

I just dislike these problems, and wish i didn't have them. Anything to keep me out of trouble and it never works for me.
 
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Good to hear. Remember- every shit has an end. Even hitler is dead.
 
Yes it ends but doesn't mean is always positive, someone can or will suffer at the cost of others, that what it means to survive in the end.
 
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@natanelho but but, his death was faked!!!1!!11!111!

Jokes aside pretty much what natanelho was saying just get through it!
 

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