Well, I have some entry exam on monday to see if I would make it at this school thinger that will help me prepare for external exams (I dunno if something like that exists elsewhere, it's basically those guys from the examination board preparing the stuff you get tested at instead of your teachers, so you go to their office, take the exam and they'll tell your teachers some days later if you passed or not, something like that) - my main problem is math, not that I'm bad at it, actually until I got this shitface of a teacher who was insanely senile and correcting himself all the time I was really good at it. *shrugs*
The new teachers seem nice, I'm somewhat scared tho, I've never been quite fond of school, had to deal with bullying, awesomely ignorant teachers and lots of other shit so I dropped out early and went to some kind of vocational school (webdesign) and did an one year internship as a graphics designer afterwards, but to be honest, it's not what I want to do at all. I am no longer that sure what I want to do. I thought I want to do an apprenticeship as a hairdresser, not because I want to work as that later, but because it would secure me a job if I am in need of one. Hairdressers are always needed and you can work as that in ANY country. But I am no longer sure if I'm really cut out for that, I'm not feeling that comfy in my own body right now, hairdressers usually are pretty and all and I've become such an introvert the past few years when I was living with my ex bf in that city I did not know anyone. *sigh* Where has the outgoing, happy-go-lucky and very positive but slightly naive girl I once was vanished to? I miss her somewhat. I don't see how being all mature, worrying about the future like crazy and all that shit has any benefits for me.
Ah well, I'm back home so maybe the other me will be back sooner or later too. Until then I need to figure out what I want to do. And going back to school gives me time for that. Soo yeah.. back to school it is. If I pass the exam. So, studying like crazy til monday is what I will be doing now, awesome. XD
ps. I have internet again, but don't expect me online until next week. XD~
pps. Life is awesomely great right now, even tho I worry about my future, all other things are going oh so well!
The new teachers seem nice, I'm somewhat scared tho, I've never been quite fond of school, had to deal with bullying, awesomely ignorant teachers and lots of other shit so I dropped out early and went to some kind of vocational school (webdesign) and did an one year internship as a graphics designer afterwards, but to be honest, it's not what I want to do at all. I am no longer that sure what I want to do. I thought I want to do an apprenticeship as a hairdresser, not because I want to work as that later, but because it would secure me a job if I am in need of one. Hairdressers are always needed and you can work as that in ANY country. But I am no longer sure if I'm really cut out for that, I'm not feeling that comfy in my own body right now, hairdressers usually are pretty and all and I've become such an introvert the past few years when I was living with my ex bf in that city I did not know anyone. *sigh* Where has the outgoing, happy-go-lucky and very positive but slightly naive girl I once was vanished to? I miss her somewhat. I don't see how being all mature, worrying about the future like crazy and all that shit has any benefits for me.
Ah well, I'm back home so maybe the other me will be back sooner or later too. Until then I need to figure out what I want to do. And going back to school gives me time for that. Soo yeah.. back to school it is. If I pass the exam. So, studying like crazy til monday is what I will be doing now, awesome. XD
ps. I have internet again, but don't expect me online until next week. XD~
pps. Life is awesomely great right now, even tho I worry about my future, all other things are going oh so well!
