Depression came to visit today

I was setting up the projector to play a movie. Tomorrow is my daughter's birthday. As I was tinkering with the sound system, I was overwhelmed with a sensation of uselessness, like if I am a defective part that has to be discarded and all of a sudden there I was again. There.

I hate myself sometimes. Mostly always, anyway.

Take notice. Depression never goes away. Either if you take medication or not, it is a life long battle. Who wins is anyone's guess.

Stay healthy, guys.

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Has a daughter
Probably owns a house too
Which means that you have a stable job
With apparently good pay as you can afford internet, tiny humans and a projector
And I'd dare to say a college career otherwise no work
Which could mean that you own college friends
Probably met wife at it
And yet you're depressed?

What can I say? When I'm depressed I stop eating for 6-7 days... try it. Might work for you.
 
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drink some water, go for a walk. have a snack and watch some tv. go see a therapist if needed
dont be hard on yourself and dont stop eating for a week like the other user said...
 
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I know exactly where you are coming from and can I just commend you for speaking out about it.
Honestly, that takes big cahonies and can actually be part of the healing process... No matter how miniscule. Try to keep your head up and I know it doesn't mean much but... Your not alone and definitely not useless.
 
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Depression and anxiety royally suck, like, a lot. I've been in some seriously dark places, and have some truly paralytic and debilitating thoughts. I'm taking medication for it and it does help, as does having a stable job, but I still have my moments where anxiety does a preemptive strike and I feel absolutely useless. Or that people are better than me at my job and that I'm only slowing them down when it's never been true. That being said, try meditation, going for a walk and clear your head.
 
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@JuanMena
Valid points, but I can't help thinking that you don't know what you are commenting on.

@HellaJvke
Can't drink anymore water, or else the sea levels might go down. I keep myself hydrated, but I guess the walk is lacking. I stay in doors quite a lot. Even pre-covid. But sometimes I even fear being alone. That's why I keep myself around people when out doors, I guess.

@Lostbhoy
Thanks. Coming forward with relative unknowns is easier, you know. No way to be judgemental.

@the_randomizer
I didn't take you as one of us. Heh. About the valid job comparison issues, well sometimes they appear, but I am extremely good at somethings and my workmates in others and we are quite a good team. Meditation at the moment is a no go. Two kids waltzing about wrecking havok make it an impossibility.

THANKS GUYS!
 
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I don't know?

I've been living with anxiety and depression since I was 14 years old.

And I was obviously trying to be cynical about it by pointing out positive things about you

I guess, if you're unable to see those positive points, then it's time for you to seek actual medical help. Maybe get some drugs.

I read once that if depression on teenagers wont even let them jerk off, that would mean that they're in a seriously deep depression and should be treated by a doctor.

Fortunately for me, I've only stopped eating for 6 to 7 days... sometimes.

Just to be sure: Is this when I should go deep into my past telling you about my disease, the day my baby was killed, those days when I tried to suicide and how I bravely overcome those problems by turning myself into a cynical joker and painting everyday?
Instructions were unclear / not a fan of social interaction.
 
@JuanMena
I apologise, but your posting was not clear.
I am sorry what you have been through, my friend. I also went the comedic route to get some escapism, but when alone the mind voyages far and away.

Again, apologies.
 
It's not supposed to be clear. It's supposed to make you think how fortunate you are.
It's supposed to make you realize that there's people that's beyond dead and we don't even cry about it.

Again,next time, look at yourself and the people surrounding you and do realize that you're not alone.
Depression is based/caused by chemicals in your brain, and it's been proven that diet, or not getting enough rest can alter said chemicals.

See it like chemistry and not as a disease.
Then, you'll have a choice to do something about it. It will become, literally a decision whether or not to be depressed
 
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@JuanMena the point is Money may helps you to eliminate problems irl, and reach many goals but certainly can't CURE depression.
Even wealthy people could be depressed, it has nothing to do with money and/or job.

@eyeliner year 2020, we are being part of biggest event of human history, has pushed to wide open many social problems which otherwise would never shown, usually get out of home and have walk, maybe talk to random people at pub, and when 2 grown adults started talking about lives, you will see that you are NOT alone.
 
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@leon315
Money is certainly not a cure for depression.
Money is not equal to happines.

@eyeliner
This is aimed directly at you: Have you found the source of your depression? Like... are you depressed because you're followin something material but can't?
 
well, i had depression with long evolution..... i had learn that you can fell better making good things for your family and people. I atend sick children and they always searchs for their parents, i thing your dughter loves you... so never fogget that even when both fight.
 
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Mate, are you seeing someone professional? A lot of people find that very helpful to help with the battle against depression.

Stay strong!
 
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Cutting out alcohol helped me massively, and lately I've been getting back into lifting weights and actually sitting in the sun, you don't realise how deficient in vitamins you are until you feel different
 
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Sunlight triggers the production of serotonin and vitamin D, that can help a lot with battling depression. As does seeing a professional, no shame in seeing a therapist. trust me, as someone battle anxiety. I have my share of shitty days, ups and downs, like today for instance.
 
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I can sympathize. That's how I've felt today. I'm sick of the internet drama I've been facing for several years. A large part of me wants to go back before my life became the internet. I used to lift weights and play guitar daily. I haven't done either in years. I started lifting weights back in high school. I could bench 230 weighing 150 lbs. As for guitar, I was being taught by a teacher. That's how I learned how chords were made and stuff. I may go back there if I finally get fed up with the internet.
 
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You probably have some mysterious underlying issue that can't be easily resolved with simple advice. You probably don't have a clue! Good luck!
 
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Thank you all. My lifelong friend just wanted to be noticed for a while.

I won't be anywhere anytime soon.

Thanks for your support. I'll be around for you all.
 
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Tucha died a few years back. Her daughter died last year.

Both after living full, happy loved lives.
 

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