Gotta get this off my chest...
I've been wanting to talk to this girl for a while now, since about 2 weeks ago. I thought about talking to her right after I had the moment to ask her for some time alone. I'm always late with making my mind up...
Either way, the rest of the week I had another chance however I aborted the mission (wanna shoot myself for this).
Next week (previous week), I hadn't seen her. I decided not to ask her sister to arrange something because that would probably ruin my chances if I actually have any.
Then today, I saw her again, but another girl was with her. I don't really like that one so again I aborted the mission (wanna shoot myself for this as well).
The last part is was makes me want to shoot myself. Why did I let some girl make me change my plans? I hate myself for this...
The reason I did not want to ask her sister is kinda complicated. She's in the same group of friends as my brother and as soon as he finds out I'm in for some real "brotherly love". Which is not what I'm afraid of, but it would probably ruin my chances...
Before you bring it up, this actually has nothing to do with Valentine's Day because I don't feel that way for her. It's just that we've been ignoring each others presence whenever we were kinda next to each other (like a 1/2 meters distance) and I don't think she did not recognize me all those time. I want to talk to her about that, ask if she's willing to change things... because if she's not, I'm not going to put any effort into it. If I don't do this ASAP I'm gonna hate myself for it because eventually I probably won't see her anymore.
Also, family keeps pressure on me because I've not yet found a girl who'd want to go to prom with me. There about 2 or 3 I'd ask out but I'm waiting for an opportunity with one of them to do et. If she says no, tough luck, I'll ask the other one. I've a plan on how to do it/what to say. On that note though, they keep telling me to ask the above girl out to prom but that's impossible because I didn't do shit 2 years ago so I dropped a level...
Thanks for reading and any advice you might give me, there might be more later...
And, if you're reading this, E... fuck, you probably already knew how I felt about this...
Family, especially bro, if you're reading this. FML...
I've been wanting to talk to this girl for a while now, since about 2 weeks ago. I thought about talking to her right after I had the moment to ask her for some time alone. I'm always late with making my mind up...
Either way, the rest of the week I had another chance however I aborted the mission (wanna shoot myself for this).
Next week (previous week), I hadn't seen her. I decided not to ask her sister to arrange something because that would probably ruin my chances if I actually have any.
Then today, I saw her again, but another girl was with her. I don't really like that one so again I aborted the mission (wanna shoot myself for this as well).
The last part is was makes me want to shoot myself. Why did I let some girl make me change my plans? I hate myself for this...
The reason I did not want to ask her sister is kinda complicated. She's in the same group of friends as my brother and as soon as he finds out I'm in for some real "brotherly love". Which is not what I'm afraid of, but it would probably ruin my chances...
Before you bring it up, this actually has nothing to do with Valentine's Day because I don't feel that way for her. It's just that we've been ignoring each others presence whenever we were kinda next to each other (like a 1/2 meters distance) and I don't think she did not recognize me all those time. I want to talk to her about that, ask if she's willing to change things... because if she's not, I'm not going to put any effort into it. If I don't do this ASAP I'm gonna hate myself for it because eventually I probably won't see her anymore.
Also, family keeps pressure on me because I've not yet found a girl who'd want to go to prom with me. There about 2 or 3 I'd ask out but I'm waiting for an opportunity with one of them to do et. If she says no, tough luck, I'll ask the other one. I've a plan on how to do it/what to say. On that note though, they keep telling me to ask the above girl out to prom but that's impossible because I didn't do shit 2 years ago so I dropped a level...
Thanks for reading and any advice you might give me, there might be more later...
And, if you're reading this, E... fuck, you probably already knew how I felt about this...
Family, especially bro, if you're reading this. FML...
