Ever feel like you're drifting away from a community but would do anything to get back? Well, sit tight, because this is gonna be a hell of a story, and probably my longest blog.
It all starts in November 2017. My friend, let's call him "Kevin", sends me a link to join his new discord. His discord was related to game preservation and the such. It was nice, and he was nice. Then he made a secret channel, kind of like the secret channel in the ReSwitched server. This was way later, when the server blew up, and I was inactive for like two months. He was glad to see me come back. It was all smooth sailing, he gave me access to the secret channel. I met the rest of the people in the channel, some of whom I already knew and some of who I didn't. But the majority of people I met there were people I know we beforehand. There was this one person, let's call her "Sarah". She was quite nice. Sarah recommended me as a staff member later, and I was really quite happy that day. This is the part where it a starts falling apart. I was really happy, but the eagerness took me over. I accidentally deleted a few messages, and a demotion occurred. I got demoted to the Content Releaser role. I didn't really mind the demotion, it was just a pink role. Anyhow, I got kicked from the server later for "being annoying and slight attention whoring" by Sarah herself. I think I might've said some bad stuff to her before, which I deeply regret and am sorry for. Sarah, if you're reading this, which you probably are, I'm sorry. Anyway, I came back without any roles but still able to access the secret channel. I asked Kevin later, "Could I have the content releaser role back?" To which he replied, "You didn't release shit." His words. I've actually released something before, but I'm not gonna say what it was. A few weeks pass. Slow, tense weeks between me and the others. Of course there were some people who still liked me in that little group, and they might be some of the nicest people that I have never deserved to met. Anyway, Kevin bans me later for saying the word "Epic". I had to say sorry to Kevin for betraying him and his poor hatred of the word Epic. Like what the fuck, Kevin?
Anyway, after this I didn't get the secret channel back. That's the only channel that has some semblance of activity within it, so without it the server was basically a desert. So I only chatted a few times, usually close to midnight. I took a break after this, hoping to see that they realise they have done wrong, only to find out that there was some drama involving me joining and rejoining the server as a user named "EpicGamer." Someone said, "Kevin that's a server scraper" and he said, "oh sorry." I wasn't gonna reply to him with a regular old "k kev" to him, no. I blocked him and left the server and deleted my own discord, which at the time had 156 members in anger. That was a shitty decision, but the server was dead anyway. Kevin apologized to me later, and I accepted it reluctantly. Now, let's cut to today. I was talking to one of my friends still in that secret chat, let's call him "Dan." Me and Dan were talking about stuff, then Kevin's discord came up. He was out of the loop when Kevin removed me from the secret chat, so he asks, "hey why'd you remove jelly" and Kevin said "he's annoying." Only difference from me now from me before is that I chat way way less. The server is a wasteland without the secret channel. And then I said, it's probably just him, to which he sent me a screenshot of him saying "Man even the people are starting to annoy me here, especially jelly"
To which Sarah replies "same"
And another replies "same"
I'm gone from that server for the near future. I loved that server at some point, but it's changed. I'm sorry guys, but I'm gone.
And I can't wrap my head around how I'm being annoying. Is it from being relatively inactive because the rest of the server is?
Tl;Dr I'm gonna get a lot of flack from this blog and I'm sorry to all of you who've read my masterpiece and I'm sorry to Sarah.
Also uh if you were in there and don't feel like hiding your name you could tell me how I'm annoying thx :-)
It all starts in November 2017. My friend, let's call him "Kevin", sends me a link to join his new discord. His discord was related to game preservation and the such. It was nice, and he was nice. Then he made a secret channel, kind of like the secret channel in the ReSwitched server. This was way later, when the server blew up, and I was inactive for like two months. He was glad to see me come back. It was all smooth sailing, he gave me access to the secret channel. I met the rest of the people in the channel, some of whom I already knew and some of who I didn't. But the majority of people I met there were people I know we beforehand. There was this one person, let's call her "Sarah". She was quite nice. Sarah recommended me as a staff member later, and I was really quite happy that day. This is the part where it a starts falling apart. I was really happy, but the eagerness took me over. I accidentally deleted a few messages, and a demotion occurred. I got demoted to the Content Releaser role. I didn't really mind the demotion, it was just a pink role. Anyhow, I got kicked from the server later for "being annoying and slight attention whoring" by Sarah herself. I think I might've said some bad stuff to her before, which I deeply regret and am sorry for. Sarah, if you're reading this, which you probably are, I'm sorry. Anyway, I came back without any roles but still able to access the secret channel. I asked Kevin later, "Could I have the content releaser role back?" To which he replied, "You didn't release shit." His words. I've actually released something before, but I'm not gonna say what it was. A few weeks pass. Slow, tense weeks between me and the others. Of course there were some people who still liked me in that little group, and they might be some of the nicest people that I have never deserved to met. Anyway, Kevin bans me later for saying the word "Epic". I had to say sorry to Kevin for betraying him and his poor hatred of the word Epic. Like what the fuck, Kevin?
Anyway, after this I didn't get the secret channel back. That's the only channel that has some semblance of activity within it, so without it the server was basically a desert. So I only chatted a few times, usually close to midnight. I took a break after this, hoping to see that they realise they have done wrong, only to find out that there was some drama involving me joining and rejoining the server as a user named "EpicGamer." Someone said, "Kevin that's a server scraper" and he said, "oh sorry." I wasn't gonna reply to him with a regular old "k kev" to him, no. I blocked him and left the server and deleted my own discord, which at the time had 156 members in anger. That was a shitty decision, but the server was dead anyway. Kevin apologized to me later, and I accepted it reluctantly. Now, let's cut to today. I was talking to one of my friends still in that secret chat, let's call him "Dan." Me and Dan were talking about stuff, then Kevin's discord came up. He was out of the loop when Kevin removed me from the secret chat, so he asks, "hey why'd you remove jelly" and Kevin said "he's annoying." Only difference from me now from me before is that I chat way way less. The server is a wasteland without the secret channel. And then I said, it's probably just him, to which he sent me a screenshot of him saying "Man even the people are starting to annoy me here, especially jelly"
To which Sarah replies "same"
And another replies "same"
I'm gone from that server for the near future. I loved that server at some point, but it's changed. I'm sorry guys, but I'm gone.
And I can't wrap my head around how I'm being annoying. Is it from being relatively inactive because the rest of the server is?
Tl;Dr I'm gonna get a lot of flack from this blog and I'm sorry to all of you who've read my masterpiece and I'm sorry to Sarah.
Also uh if you were in there and don't feel like hiding your name you could tell me how I'm annoying thx :-)
