Why I haven't been feeling so great lately

I think this will make a lot more sense if I start from the beginning.

I met this girl who goes to my university (one year bellow me) back in September on VanEnthusiasts.com Tinder and we got along really well. Everything felt great for that month because we hanged out and got to know each other as individuals. We did share intimate moments and I was fine with that. The charm of GhostLatte is unmatched ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°). This continued well into October and I was in my glory.

However, everything changed in November and that's when things started to go downhill. We haven't hanged since October 30th and every time I've asked her to hang she always has either cancelled (two times now?) or said she has homework to do. I get the homework part because she majors in art and they have the heaviest course load at my school. However, she just isn't the same person from when I met her. She barely responds to my texts anymore. I called her up like two weeks ago to ask what was wrong and she said didn't want a relationship and that she needed space. I was fine with this. I mean trust me just being friends would be alright and then eventually she would get in the van. I've done everything I can to make this work. I've given only the utmost compassion and kindness. I've been a supporter of her work from the beginning and have given her motivation. I've told her things I have't told others because I trusted her. I even gave her a great birthday gift last week from the heart. I'm conflicted in my emotions. as part of me is saying she doesn't need you in her life and that you fucked up. The other part is saying that you haven't done anything wrong and that she needs space like she said. I'm honestly just really lost in all of this. I was sad for a bit, but I realized that I would be fine without her if things didn't work out as there plenty of people to drag into the van.

Thanks for reading this and I hope you enjoyed the subtle humor throughout. It was good to get this off my chest.