Type in proper English for Christ's sake. I would love to sympathize with you but I can't if your posts are nothing but jibberish.
I'm a mistake, my parents told me I was an accidental pregnancy. Now that being said they still love me very much, or so I hope.
My dad's partner was an illegitimate marriage from a mistress of his father's, though. His whole family tree is very fucked up from what he's tried to explain to me.