I've been feeling waves of doubt combined with feelings of believing I've made the right choice. So let me do some background to explain. My current job involved me working at a bakery/warehouse for the past two years come this August, during the time, I as an employee, did not experience much growth and felt like I was getting nowhere. The job has driven me to several panic attacks that were nigh-on debilitating and requiring me to vent to my boss, which I found to be embarrassing, but he was understanding all the same. Flash forward to 2017, I've been trying to find a job better suited to me and what defined me, tech support. A lot of what I know and learned was self taught and also from my older brother, who does computer tech/IT for a living. Sure enough, I found a job dealing with tech support for WISPs/Wireless ISPs, basic Tier-I support.
This is where things get weird, I still "have" the other job, but it's been reduced to only maybe five-six hours per week, in addition to my new tech job; this way I haven't burned my bridges but have something to fall back on in case. Now, I've done hard things in the past, learning Japanese, working at a call center job for almost a year to save up for my car, the list goes on. But what I can't seem to shake, is the fact on whether or not I made an asinine and egregious decision in accepting the job offer. The reason I feel this way maybe is the fact that my brother is the one that got me my warehouse job (he works there as well), and I feel that doing this will be a sign of ingratitude, somehow. Top that off I'm feeling a lot of uncertainty, even though computer stuff is more my forte, and has many more hours, better pay, more consistency, etc.
My warehouse job hours annoyed me, I couldn't stand the lack of consistency, having to wake up at 3:30 AM to cover someone's shift twice in the same week when he could've come in sick. If people come in sick, he should do the same and man up, but no, he wussed out. I'm conflicted, I don't want to do something stupid and bail out of either job completely. With a student loan with an amount that intimidates me, I can't afford to not work, should I cut ties completely from the bakery job and go here exclusively? I've been on edge the past few days, emotional and even cried last night before I went to bed, because I sometimes don't know what the hell is wrong with me
I need help, advice, and right now, I...just want to cry...
This is where things get weird, I still "have" the other job, but it's been reduced to only maybe five-six hours per week, in addition to my new tech job; this way I haven't burned my bridges but have something to fall back on in case. Now, I've done hard things in the past, learning Japanese, working at a call center job for almost a year to save up for my car, the list goes on. But what I can't seem to shake, is the fact on whether or not I made an asinine and egregious decision in accepting the job offer. The reason I feel this way maybe is the fact that my brother is the one that got me my warehouse job (he works there as well), and I feel that doing this will be a sign of ingratitude, somehow. Top that off I'm feeling a lot of uncertainty, even though computer stuff is more my forte, and has many more hours, better pay, more consistency, etc.
My warehouse job hours annoyed me, I couldn't stand the lack of consistency, having to wake up at 3:30 AM to cover someone's shift twice in the same week when he could've come in sick. If people come in sick, he should do the same and man up, but no, he wussed out. I'm conflicted, I don't want to do something stupid and bail out of either job completely. With a student loan with an amount that intimidates me, I can't afford to not work, should I cut ties completely from the bakery job and go here exclusively? I've been on edge the past few days, emotional and even cried last night before I went to bed, because I sometimes don't know what the hell is wrong with me
I need help, advice, and right now, I...just want to cry...
