Blog entries by the_randomizer
I'm trying to quit porn, like, completely, I want to be free from it. I want to escape from its grasp, and yes, a lot of media can be good, a lot of it can be bad, it's a double-edged sword. I hate the thoughts that creep into my head, it's been causing me anxiety, I hate this, and I don't know...
So this is a bit of an odd topic, and stems entirely from a potentially nonexistent fear I had months back, but have been using a sort of band-aid approach, a crutch, to hiding it. See, Windows 10 has or had an issue where the taskbar icons would randomly, it seems, refresh for no apparent...
Porn is still an issue for me, it is a literal and palpable hell. It has been tormenting me and my biggest fear is people hating me or thinking less of me for giving it up, if that makes any sense. Right now, I'm being my own worst enemy, causing myself to fear irrationally on what will happen...
So, as you all know, I've had my ups and downs on here, and this year has been especially hellacious for me when it comes to my emotions and my anxiety. I'm going to be very open and upfront/honest about my deepest, darkest inner demons. This is very very difficult for me to even confess this...
I don't want to stress anyone who knows me out, or cause anyone who's friends with me to look at me any less. My job is in shambles, I'm still in debt, and I'm just not happy as I should be. I'm trying to figure out what the hell is causing all this, why I'm not happy at my job, why I set myself...
Well my job went to BS again, why? I'll explain, it's a bit long-winded. So, yes, I have a job, but I don't have work
to do, if that makes sense.
So, what I was doing was working in a warehouse, which wasn't permanent and being leased out to us to unload and deliver bread into vans/trucks...
Where to begin? Let's start off with what I said about three weeks ago, regarding my job situation, the tech support job didn't work out, in fact, it broke me mentally. Customer service is my kryptonite, something I'm not suited for. Dealing with bitter people, people calling in, bitching about...
I've been feeling waves of doubt combined with feelings of believing I've made the right choice. So let me do some background to explain. My current job involved me working at a bakery/warehouse for the past two years come this August, during the time, I as an employee, did not experience much...
Okay so things have gotten...interesting or rather, frustrating with my job. To back up for those who may not be aware, I work at a bakery or warehouse that delivers bread from Pocatello down to where I live, some distance away, to a warehouse where I help unload it. I unload the bread onto...
I almost never make threads on here, for a variety of reasons, most of them trivial but I digress. Yesterday I had a helluva financial-related emergency, as some know I've had to pay for dental-related bills during my period of unemployment and as a result, have a myriad of bills to pay. So yes...
There's been a lot going on with my life, stress, jobs, anxiety, trying to go by day by day, trying to figure out who I am on the inside, why things trigger me, upset me, and so on. I've done some things in the past, on here or the internet in general, many things that I still regret and trying...
So, to start off, I used to be in great shape, kept the same weight for three years in fact, when I live in Japan anyway. I rode my bike and walked everywhere, I kept a healthy 180-185 pounds (82 to 74 kg) during my stay as an intern. That being said, when I got back I got a call center job, I...
So, a while back I had to use care credit during a period of joblessness to pay for a couple of dental crowns, and the credit obviously was able to cover the costs. Well, over time I was able make payments here and there, small, but payments nonetheless. That being said, earlier this year, I...
I need help, or rather, I need to vent, given my recent reactions to certain people on other locations (or other forums not here, but elsewhere), it's evident that I've issues with controlling my anger. I obviously don't want to get more personal, however, I need to get this off of my chest...
I know I just made a blog entry not too long ago, but I'm at a loss as far as making amends with someone I deeply offended two months ago. It hurts, a lot, and I wish I never said those horrific things to this person's friend. Here's the lowdown, there were two friends, one I knew and met...
And I don't know what do to, and I hope that a blog is appropriate for venting my deeply impacted feelings. I hate to unload on the Temp regarding this matter, but tonight, I leaned absolutely horrific news regarding a good fox owner friend of mine. I spent time at my parent's house only to...
And it's been affecting me on more ways than I'd like it to, often driving me to tears, yes, it's that bad. This isn't like me at all, and I reach out to you, the members of this fine community, if not for advice, then just to vent my deeply ingrained negativity that's been bogging me down. To...
I want this to be a serious discussions, so please, bear with me. :)
I've been thinking a lot, and have had way too many negative thoughts on my mind as of late, this is most assuredly not healthy in any stretch of the imagination. As such, I need to some venting, I've been way too negative and...
Well, since my last SSBB blog is nonexistent, I shall create another one to better showcase the character hacks I've been making.
General Scales over Wolf
Krystal over Peach
Anubis over Ike
Esper Terra over Peach
Weregarurumon over Wolf
Final Fantasy X Shiva over Peach...
Yep, I'm into hacking the game by creating or rather rigging custom characters using 3DS Studio Max. Why? Because I love a good challenge and have learned much about how character animations work B-)So far, I have successfully imported roughly 21 characters from other games into Brawl using 3DS...
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guys, i need help, i got into an argument about what genre radioactive is, and i forgot who made it -
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Sicklyboy:
hahahaha I'm half way through a bag off my Volcano and my tolerance is way down because I haven't been smoking much lately, so I was a little slow to catch that that was what your angle was+1
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Sicklyboy:
Also I was just excited to know a music reference for once (I am the LAST person in the world that you want on your trivia team)+2
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