I feel empty

I feel like a sponge that soaks up personality traits from other people. Then later I wringe it out and become empty again. I feel like I don't even have a personality sometimes.

If you want a good example of how I feel, look up Parasyte the Maxim where the protagonist loses all emotions.
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x65943
Sorry to hear it man

Depression makes you feel worthless, but you aren't

You have a personality but you can't see it because you are so distressed
 
DarthDub
You misunderstand, I don't feel depressed at all. I'm also not distressed. I'm just making observations.
 
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x65943
Glad to hear that!

I have to say though, I have only heard such comments from depressed people. I am sure you have a personality.
 
Glyptofane
Don't worry, but it never changes.

One time, like 20 years ago, my girlfriend at the time told me that when we talked it was like I only had a series of catchphrases I would use as conversation. I basically took it as being told I have no soul.
 
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Cyan
Do you try to please everyone and don't want to disappoint?
Maybe you don't want to lose friendship and be alone, so you just "act like them, like the same things"?

is it only in the way you act and speak with others, or do you think it also affect what you do when you are alone?
When you are alone, you have your personality, for example being here! liking video games, etc., isn't it your own choice?

I suppose you do have your own personality, even if it's "empty", it's still what you are, no ? Maybe your personality is "sponge" :P
If you feel like being a sponge, maybe you are too much empathic (emotional and/or cognitive).
 
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GhostLatte
You may not realize but there are people on here, including me, who care about you. I'm here for you and if you ever need anything, my DMs are open.
 
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DarthDub
I can totally relate with the catchphrases thing. Also, I don't actually care enough most of the time to try to appeal to everyone. I just do what I like to do and if someone likes it, even better. Another thing that bugs me is people call me an idiot for having an opinion. Maybe I should put a disclaimer saying, hey this is my opinion please don't get triggered.
 
Cyan
if you have your own opinion and don't care what people think, what makes you feel hollow? it's just emotionally ? you don't feel joy or sadness, not happy or angry ?
you feel angry when people call you an idiot for having an opinion, no?

just trying to understand, or make you think about it.
 
DarthDub
No, I get angry when people make assumptions about me that aren't true. Being accused of something I didn't do, that kind of thing.
 
Glyptofane
We're just bags of meat experiencing chemical reactions. Don't fret it and if people react negatively to your opinions, fuck them not yourself.
 
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DarthDub
I'd rather keep my pants on, thank you. Who knows what kind of festering diseases these people have
 
Glyptofane
Oh, I know... man, I am terrified of disease, but refuse to use protection, because it's like might as well not even bother. So porn and the ol lefty it is.
 
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Navonod
I'd rather be protected. It depends on how well I know the person. Still fun either way.
 
Glyptofane
Ah, to be honest, I'm married and have a kid now, so kind of a moot point really. They did a test at the hospital which I guess showed we didn't have AIDS or syphilis. That's all you can hope for really.
 
DarthDub
Of course I'm not alone, I'm just trying to reflect on myself and try to figure out who I am.
 

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