I've been way too negative as of late

I've got some anxiety issues of my own actually. I have a pretty terrible work history too and I only have 4 months worth of job experience total. It's been really difficult to find work but now my passport has expired and I'm left with no documentation to be able to work. I had a job interview recently and I was pretty much hired, I just haven't got to start working yet because I can't prove who I am. I've been put on hold for now, I just hope it'll last long enough to get a copy of my birth certificate or something

How long would it be before you could renew your passport/work visa? Damn, that sucks, dude, and yeah, the job market is brutal, and I feel for ya, man. It's good to vent, and I do confess, when I was writing this, I was shaking, because part of me was unsure on how the members here would react to me being so open about my anxiety, you know? But, I'm glad I was wrong, that people are open about discussing their struggles, it helps us sort things better I noticed.

I do not really believe in anxiety as I never experience it, but hey everyone is different!
When I have a shit ton of work [as it sounds like you have] / piled up things I just jump into a pool of some kind [public/private/ even a tub is fine] then just be completely covered [except some way to breath!!] for 30 mins or so. After that I generally feel energized so then I go on a spree and get everything done- not at once. One at a time.
Just because I never had anxiety does not mean it is not very real to some people- there are tons who claim to have it.
I just hope you can find a way to beat it.
Venting can help too, so vent all you want here!

It's hell, it's often painful and often very frightening. Also can be quite debilitating at times, it's something I deal with and hope to overcome it, the trouble is I don't think one thing at a time or try to accomplish one at a time. What I need to do, is change these thoughts, and try to start doing things one step at a time

I called about renewing my passport but they require a birth certificate or ss card too, neither of which I have. Hopefully I'll get either one of them soon cause I really want to start working, save up and move out

Keep it up, man, you've got this And thanks for those who have been replying so far

Try meditating (try not to think), and only make action, action without thought.
That's the way I do things, and it's the Chinese way. =D

The mere fact you are able to objectively self analyze means so
much man. You know you're in a real bad place when you stop
examining your own reasons and actions.
Everyone has the ability to let life get them down, trust me!
I'm 41 years old and it doesn't get better.
The challenges just get more difficult. (Spiritual challenges)
But one thing is for sure. Don't let whether you have a job or
not define your self worth!
I am an artist at heart and I think it's safe to assume most
people who hang at a place like this are.
We all know the government hates artists and wants workers.
They want you to keep your head low and do what you're told
without question. This is extremely difficult for an artist!
I want to make money with my music and movies but until
that happens, I have to find other ways to make money.
So I am a freelance computer consultant to get by.
Some months rock but others are absolute shit.
If I wanted to be a "go getter" ... A "Good citizen"...
I would be out kissing ass for every penny like many rich
people do but then what happens?
They get a chip on their shoulder, get bitter and think they're
better than everyone else just because they were driven by
greed rather than by curiosity which is what drives REAL
programmers and artists. (I'm better than U cuz I'm rich!)
I don't want to be like that, it would be like loosing my soul!
So I put up with mediocre months rather than loose myself.
Once you get too good of a job, your life is over.
All you do is work. That is what salary jobs are,
they expect you to bleed the company's blood.
No hour is your own. Screw that! I want my freedom and I'd
rather live in a barn and be free than a multi million dollar
home where I spend every moment of my life worrying for
some OTHER person's company and in fear that if I screw up,
I might loose it all.

You sound completely normal. Above normal actually.
Being honest about yourself means you face yourself.
The majority of humanity does NOT do this!
Most people blame others and get worse.

And yes, meditation is excellent but it is always hard when
I see that as a suggestion because there are so many ways
to do it. When I make music, that is a form of meditation.
I also read and find great solace in religious texts,
especially the Vedas which are some of the oldest
known writings. It is amazing the wisdom in these!